We all make choices multiple times a day. Sometimes our choices are bad, sometimes they’re good. Our choices can be as simple as what to eat for lunch, or what to wear each day. Or they can be as complicated as which house to buy, or whether to stay with a boyfriend/partner/spouse.
We make a choice the moment we get up each day. The choice to be in a good mood or a bad one. The choice to look at the day positively or negatively. And we are faced with choices until we go to bed.
When my depression surfaces, I have the choice to give up or fight.
I choose to fight.
We are lucky because for the most part, we have the freedom to make choices for ourselves. Unless under the age of 18, no one is telling us what we have to choose in any given situation.
But how much are we allowing the world around us to influence our choices?
How often do we make a choice based on how we think people will react? Or based on what our culture tells us we’re supposed to do?
How often do we base our choices on what’s in the media or what trend is popular?
And for me, there have been many times I’ve regretted a choice I made because it was the thing to do. I’ve regretted choices I’ve made based on fear of what people will think of me.
I have chosen to keep secrets. I have chosen to lie. All out of fear of being judged.
It’s unacceptable that we should have to hide parts of ourselves because we fear people may not approve.
Why do I have to explain every choice I make? If it is the right choice for me, then it doesn’t matter what someone else thinks.
It’s my life. As long as I’m not hurting anyone or doing something illegal, then why do I need approval?
If my choice is a mistake, it’s my mistake to make.
And who are you to judge me? Who are any of us to judge anyone? No one’s perfect. We all make mistakes, just like we all do incredibly amazing things. We are all different, unique and beautiful, and we have the right to make choices that work for us, even if not everyone agrees with that choice.
I have made incredible choices in my life. I’ve made wonderful choices with the friends I have (and some bad choices too, but they’re not in my life anymore). I’ve chosen to see the good in life instead of focusing on the bad. I’ve chosen to be positive despite being a naturally negative person. I have chosen to help and serve others. I have chosen to forgive those who hurt me. I have chosen to live fully. I have chosen to love.
I’m not going to live my life constantly worried about what others think of me. I’m not going to live my life based on what culture or the media tells me. I am going to live my life by following my heart. I am going to live my life by doing what feels right for me. I am going to live my life by what God tells me.
And I’m not going to apologize for it.
Neither should you.