It’s been nearly 4 weeks since I found out I’ve been appointed a missionary to the Czech Republic. Since then I have been busy telling friends, family, acquaintances, and anyone else who will listen! I’ve signed up for my orientation and training which is from February 10 to 16 in North Carolina (one week away!), and I have been answering questions as best I can without having a lot of information just yet.
It’s been an exciting few weeks.
As my excitement continues to grow, and I wonder what God has in store for me, the realization of what I am leaving behind has begun to sink in.
Don’t misread this – I am not having any doubts or second thoughts. The more I think about this journey I am on, the more I see how right it is for me, and how God’s hand has been directing it from the beginning.
But it would not be healthy if I didn’t acknowledge and prepare myself for the things I am going to miss here.
Today I went to my nephew’s birthday party. He turns 4 on Wednesday, and it hit me that this may be the last birthday party of his that I attend for a number of years.
Those who know me well know that I adore my nieces and nephews. They mean the world to me, and because I do not have kids of my own, they are my kids. I love that I am very involved in their lives. I love that I get to pick them up from school, and make them dinner, and be a part of their daily norms.
And I know that, in order to follow the path God has laid out for me, I have say goodbye to seeing them often. And that is what I’ll miss the most.
I’ll miss not being here for birthdays and holidays.
I’ll miss picking them up from school.
I’ll miss giving my oldest niece clothes I’ve hardly worn, and books I think she’ll enjoy.
I’ll miss teasing my oldest nephew, and trying to give him big hugs when I know he doesn’t like hugs.
I’ll miss going my young niece’s ballet class to watch her dance.
I’ll miss the way my young nephew runs to give me a hug when he sees me coming.
I will miss key events in their lives.
I will miss watching them grow, and seeing them discover something new.
I will miss them more than I can express.
I am grateful to be a part of time where it is easy to connect despite distance. I am grateful for Skype, FaceTime, email, texting, and all the other ways I can still be a part of their lives.
No, it’s not the same as being here, but it is something.
And no matter where I am in the world, I will ensure my nieces and nephews know how much I love them. That I can promise.
As I move forward on this new path, and get excited about the adventures ahead, I will also recognize and grieve what I am going to miss.
And I plan to cherish each moment I have with my nieces and nephews, my parents, my sister, my extended family, my friends, and my church family, up to the moment I step on the plane.
Although I’ll miss so much here and it hurts my heart to move so far from everyone I know and love, I am confident in my decision to move to the Czech Republic for mission work.
I want to obey God and His calling for me.
I want to do His will.
And I want to share this journey with everyone I love.
And I hope to have lots of visitors! 😊
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