I have been home from Missionary Orientation for just over a week, and I have spent my spare time getting prepared for the next steps in this journey. Today I spent my afternoon completing my timeline, making a list of contacts and working on some marketing pieces.
I briefly talked to a friend and told her about my day and she’s asked how I was feeling about everything. My honest answer was “I’m a little overwhelmed.” She was incredibly encouraging telling me it was all going to be worth it and that “I’ve got this”. In that moment I realized, no, I don’t have this, but God does.
And that’s all that matters.
God has gone before me and knows exactly how this will play out. He knows who will support me, how long the fundraising will take, and when I will move to the Czech Republic to begin my mission work.
God is using this process as an opportunity for me to grow. Grow in patience, in faith, and in something I find unbelievably challenging:
The Big Ask.
I am not good at asking for help or support. I love to give help and support to others, but asking for it for myself is intimidating.
This may come from messages I received as a child where I was told not to be a burden to others. It may come from a fierce independence I developed at a young age when I felt like I had no one to depend on. And it may very well come from pride.
God is challenging me to humble myself in order to seek the support I need. He is stretching me in ways like never before. And I am grateful.
In the Bible, when Jesus sends his disciples out to share the message, He tells them not to bring food or extra clothing. He advises them to search out meals and lodging from people in whatever town they are in.
If Jesus and His disciples can humble themselves to ask others to provide for their needs, why can’t I?
Exactly. Why can’t I?
The answer is that I can. God will provide the support that I need. He will bring people forward who believe in my missionary work and want to partner with me.
But he needs me to do the work too.
He needs me to overcome my fears and my pride, and ask.
I need to remember that although I am asking for financial support for my ministry and living expenses in the Czech Republic, it is not about me. I have been called to the Czech Republic, a country where 90% of the people are atheist, to spread the gospel. I have been called to “go out and make disciples of all nations…” as Jesus commanded in Matthew 28:19.
So when my fears and insecurities and pride try to get in the way, I need to remember that I am doing this for Him and His kingdom.
As I move through this process, I recognize that it is not just about getting people to give me their money. It’s about building relationships and partnerships. It’s about praying for one another and encouraging one another. It’s about spreading the love of our Lord together.
I may be the only one physically moving to the Czech Republic, but I am not going alone.
As I reflect on all of these things, I realize that ‘The Big Ask’, when done for Jesus, is not so big.
If He is for us, who can stand against us?
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