I started this blog over 4 years ago. My original intention was to write about my struggle with mental illness and how I stay happy and healthy despite my disease. I called it Experience Each Day because I wanted to highlight the importance of living each day to the best of our abilities. It is also a reminder not just to live each day, but to experience each day, and embrace all that we encounter, both good and bad.
The blog has evolved and changed over the years to become more than about living with depression. It’s been about life lessons, hope, faith, joy, passion and what really matters in this crazy world. But experiencing each day is still the substance of each post.
In the last couple of months I’ve been writing about my journey into missions. I am moving to the Czech Republic to be a full time missionary.
This was not something that was on my radar a year ago.
I’ve had a heart for missions for many years, and always hoped I would one day do it full time, but of all the places I imagined going, the Czech Republic never crossed my mind. I didn’t even know there was a need there until recent years.
Then God set out steps to get me there on a short term mission last summer. And it was there He revealed His calling for me. The Czech Republic is where He wants me.
So I said “ok.”
I immediately began the application process with TEAM (www.team.org), and haven’t looked back since.
Once I was accepted and began sharing what I was doing, many people told me I was brave.
Am I brave?
No, I don’t think I am.
I’m obedient to God’s calling, not brave.
Brave is the person who faces a cancer diagnosis with hope and faith. Brave is the woman who testifies against the one who sexually assaulted her. Brave are the students who refuse to back down against the fight for gun control.
No, I’m not brave. I’m going to a beautiful and safe country where I get to tell people about the love of Jesus.
I am blessed.
Something else I’ve heard a lot since I began this journey, “You must be nervous.”
No, not really.
This has been orchestrated and controlled by God from the beginning. Why would I be nervous?
To this people say, “But you’re going all alone – that must be hard.”
I’m not going alone.
I am in the process of building a team who will be supporting me throughout this adventure. I am going to work with other missionaries who are already in Czech. TEAM, the organization sending me, has provided enormous support in training, mentors, advice, direction, prayer and preparation for my transition.
And I’ve got this incredible group of people that I met at my Missionary Orientation, all of whom are going out into the world to share the love of Jesus. It’s amazing that this group of strangers from all over North America came together for one week and instantly felt connected because we each had a calling to be missionaries. Now we get to support each other, pray for each other and cheer each other on as we each follow the path laid out for us.
I am definitely not doing this alone.
And even if I didn’t have all that I’ve mentioned, I still would not be alone. This is the road God chose for me and He will travel it with me.
When God calls us, He is calling us to join Him. He is inviting us to experience His special purpose for our lives. And He’s going to walk with us the whole way.
See, I’m not brave. I’m not nervous. I’m not alone.
God called me to do this.
Why me? That is the question.
I’m not special. I’m not a pastor or a teacher. I can’t easily get up in front of a crowd and give an epic speech. I’m not gifted at hospitality or making friends quickly. I’m no good at small talk and don’t do well in large groups.
I don’t have any spectacular talents. There is nothing that makes me more qualified to do this over someone else. In fact, I am certain there are many many many others that would be better to do this than me.
But God called me and I am choosing to listen. I am choosing to obey. Because if He is calling me, then He will equip me with all I need to succeed.
While I may not be a pastor or a teacher, and I may not be the life of the party or the most popular person in the room, I do know how to love fiercely. I am a good listener, a great encourager, and a loyal friend. I am caring, kind and fun. Some even think I’m funny.
And more than anything I want to share the unbreakable joy and ever-lasting peace I have because Jesus loved me enough to die for me.
And that is enough.
He is enough.
Again I think back to when I first started this blog. It was something God asked me to do. He called me to be a voice for those suffering from mental illness.
Now He calls me to be a missionary.
When God calls, I answer.
What an incredible gift He has given me, to go to the Czech Republic to bring more people to Him. And if He is for me, who can stand against me?
“Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations…” Matthew 28:19