I haven’t written on here in a while. Life has been a bit of a whirlwind as I continue to move forward as a Missionary Appointee of TEAM. There have been lots of ups and downs as I prepare to move to the other side of the world to do God’s work. As my time to move to the Czech Republic gets closer each day, my excitement for this journey increases, as I also recognize, and prepare myself for, leaving behind everything I know.
The joys that have come out of this process have been too many to count. Number one is, without a doubt, the chance to share God’s incredible love and power through what He is doing in my life.
My life has changed drastically over the last decade – from the girl the who spent days in bed due to depression, and would, at times, stand at her front door for hours because her anxiety wouldn’t allow her to open it and walk through – to the woman who is on fire for Jesus and is being sent half way across the world to share the gospel. And I take zero credit for this transformation.
I can tell you: Nothing is impossible with God. God is GOOD!
God took the broken mess that I was and transformed me from the inside out.
How do I thank Him for that?
One way to honour His grace and mercy in my life is to obey Him. So when He said, “I want you to go to the Czech Republic as a full time missionary”, I said “Ok.”
And here I am, almost a year later since He first called me to this.
Another incredible joy has been the people I have gotten to meet and connect with as I have engaged in support raising and training.
My fellow missionaries, whom I met at Missionary Orientation, who have become friends and family, and who I am cheering on as they all prepare to go to their respective countries.
The staff at TEAM, who have been unbelievably supportive and available at all times for any needs, questions or care.
I have had the privilege of meeting new people within my church community as I share God’s calling on my life at small groups, ministry groups, and during a Sunday morning sermon.
I have been able to meet with people within my community who have a connection to the Czech Republic, such as a Kingsville pastor who spent many years in ministry in Prague. He has shared his knowledge of Czech, the people and the needs that are there, as well as offered advice on living there, and connected me with people who currently reside in and around Prague.
Yes, God is good.
I have been blown away by the generosity of people throughout the first 3+ months of support raising. There are so many who have partnered with me because they believe in what God has called me to. There are people I have never met who have become monthly partners or one time donors because they heard me speak at church or heard about me through my friends or family.
Yes, God is good.
But I am not going to pretend these past few months have not had challenges. Support raising has been steady, but it has also been more difficult than I expected. In the past I have only done short term trips, where I needed a specific amount of money (usually $2000-3500), and support raising for ongoing monthly partners is quite different.
I am also very good at getting in my own way. I am still mastering the art of patience, and still learning to let go of control. Daily I need to remind myself that I am NOT in control. God has this – He started it and He is going to provide. It’s not about me.
Hopefully one day I’ll get it. Until then, I will continue to remind myself.
I am also starting to think about things that I am leaving behind. I am trying to process as much as I can now, and start the greiving process, in the hopes that it will help when I actually leave.
I am facing the fact that I won’t be here for my nephew’s 5th birthday or my niece’s 7th. I won’t be here when my other nephew graduates middle school, or when my older niece turns 16.
There will be many family gatherings without me. I won’t be able to grab dinner with my parents, or take my sister’s kids to the movies. Friends will get married and have babies, and start new jobs, and I’ll watch from afar.
It’s going to be challenging. There will be times of struggle.
But I am not going to change my mind about going.
I still have no fear about moving to the other side of the world.
I am not going to slow this process down for a minute.
Because God said “go”. He is making a long time dream of mine real.
He is the one who brought me out of darkness, and changed me from the inside out.
He is the one who promised to never leave me.
He is the reason I need to go to the Czech Republic because His unending love is so amazing and so powerful that I have to share it with the Czech people.
Wherever He leads, I will follow.
Because He is the one who saved me.
So I will embrace all of the joys and all of the challenges.
I will miss the family gatherings and birthdays and celebrations that happen while I am gone. I will miss the weddings and babies and graduations.
Because it’s not about me.
There are people suffering because they don’t know God. There are people without hope because they haven’t opened their hearts to His love.
How can I stay in my comfortable life when He asks me to go?
Everyone has a calling in life, a purpose He has given you.
Mine is to go out into the world and make disciples.
But I am not doing it alone. Everyone who has partnered with me in prayer and monthly or one time givings is going with me. All of my loved ones are going with me. And most importantly, God is going with me.
If He is for me, who can’t stand against me?
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