It’s been a long time since I’ve written on here – the reason for that will be shared further on in this post…
Yesterday my mom said to me, “I’m so glad things are falling into place for you finally.”
As I reflected on that comment, I realized how at peace I felt because she was right. Lately everything just seems to be falling into place.
Since moving back to the Windsor area in April 2013, I have struggled to find my place, to figure out where I fit. I’ve had 5 different jobs in less than 4 years and I have moved 5 times. My life has been unsteady, to say the least.
I have faced difficulty in finding community and making close friends.
I had to start all over again when I moved back here and it was hard. No matter what I did, I didn’t feel content.
A couple of the jobs I had over the last few years have been fantastic. Working at BeachWalk Family Fitness was one of the best employments I’ve ever had. It was a great job, working for an amazing boss. I was given the opportunity to grow and challenge myself in ways I will be forever grateful for.
As much as I loved the job, I struggled financially. As a single person trying to pay bills, car insurance, gas, groceries, and for very expensive medications, I never seemed to be able to make ends meet.
It didn’t help that my living situation kept changing due to unforeseen circumstances, and that I ended up in a place where my hydro bills were three times what I’d been told they’d be.
I also know myself well enough to admit that I am not the best when it comes to managing money. I have often used shopping as therapy and that has gotten me into trouble.
I ended up leaving the gym for a job at Indigo after working both jobs for a while. I sincerely enjoyed working at Indigo and believe it is a fantastic company, but things didn’t turn out as I had hoped.
My hours dropped after Christmas, and due to my early morning shifts, it became increasingly difficult to have any social life.
I also worked most Sundays so I wasn’t able to attend church much, which eventually took a toll on my spiritual well-being.
By early January I was in a slump.
My time was spent working, sleeping and trying to figure out where I was going to live (I am currently inhabiting the guest room in my parents’ house).
My energy was zapped. My motivation was gone.
I had hit a wall.
I knew I needed to find a new job with regular hours. I also knew I needed to get off my butt and start volunterring and socializing again. All hard to do without motivation.
Then a woman I have known since my teens who has always been someone I greatly respect and admire contacted me to say she needed leaders for Alpha at Lakeshore St. Andrews Church, and I had come to her mind.
LSA Church was my church in my teens, and the church I went back to when I moved back to this area. However, as already mentioned, I hadn’t been able to attend much in recent months.
This woman is someone I could not say no to and I agreed to meet with her to discuss things further.
During our meeting she handed me the previous Sunday’s bulletin, and highlighted was a job opportunity at the church as an Office Administrator.
After my meeting with her, I met with another church staff member to discuss another ministry I was interested in volunteering with. Later that afternoon, I got an email from this staff member telling me about the job opening “in case I was interested”.
It was almost exactly seven years ago that I first felt the calling to work in ministry. That eventually led to my job at The Meeting House in the GTA. When I lost that job I didn’t think I would ever work in ministry again. I also didn’t know if I ever wanted to work in ministry again.
But even as I pursued other career paths, God was still dropping little hints that He wanted me in ministry again. I even applied for an admin job at another church last summer, but declined the interview when I was hired at Indigo.
I couldn’t ignore God’s voice any longer. He’d been patient with me throughout my slump, and throughout the previous three years as I tried to create my own path.
Now He being very clear about what He wanted from me.
So I applied for the job and got it.
I also became a leader at Alpha.
Last week I found out my application had been approved for a duplex in Belle River that I love and is perfect for me.
Suddenly everything is falling into place.
And for the first in a while I feel alive.
I feel like I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
Funny how that happens when you put your own agenda aside and start listening to God’s voice.
His way is definitely better than mine.
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